Dead End…



Dead ends.. We all hit them. We also have a choice on what we choose to do when we reach this perceived dead end. In this life there are no guarantees, especially  with whatever path you’ve decided to take. Adversity and obstacles are just another part of the human experience. We all face them, and we all have the ability to move past them. This is how we learn and grow. The next time you feel that you have hit a dead end, take a step back and reflect. What other options do you have? Is this really a dead end, or is it time to change your course? Could you try harder? Ultimately you are the one who sets your course in life, unless you allow others to do so for you. Take control, work hard, keep putting on step in front of the other.  “Faith can move mountains, but don’t be surprised if God hands you a shovel.” – Unknown


Color of Life

Not everything in life can be explained with words. Trying to explain some things in life, is like trying to explain a color that has never seen before. One must have to first see the color, to understand.

I am Human.

I am not perfect. I am broken. I have flaws. I have strengths. I have demons. I have angels. I have regrets. I have aspirations. It’s not about becoming un-broken, but filling in the cracks with light. Striving to become better. Not better than others, but better than the person you were yesterday. We are all human, we all struggle, we all have the potential to become something great. All it takes is a little faith in yourself. Don’t sit idly by while the world passes you by. Get out there, struggle, love, grow.


Quit Escaping! Your Well Being Depends On It.

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Escape Behavior – A response that is designed to move away from aversive stimulus by withdrawal or entering a fantasy world.

Life can be a bitch, it’s no secret. We all have experienced the deep urge to escape at some point. Some more than others.. In this day and age, escape can be found around every corner. Social media, internet surfing, porn, video games, Netflix binging, etc. These are all ways in which we can escape our reality temporarily to avoid the discomfort life can bring. What many may not realize though is how damaging this can be to our overall well being. It may feel great to escape at first, but once you come back, you’re right where you left off. The more you escape, the more shit in your life gets built up, the more stressed out you get, the more you feel the need to escape.

The worst part about all this is sometimes you don’t even realize that’s what you’re doing. Maybe you complete one task, then your inner voice justifies watching three hours or your favorite TV show. Or maybe you’ll be at work, and the next thing you know you’ve been scrolling through Facebook for the last two hours because you’re avoiding the work that’s built up. Our minds are masters at tricking us into comfort and seeking external stimulus to get our fix of dopamine (feel good chemical in the brain). That’s why it can be so difficult to do the things that bring discomfort. Physical and mental. If you can relate to any of this, I suggest you become more aware of your actions and escape behaviors you partake in.

There is some good news however.. You can break the cycle! First step is to simply become aware of the escape behaviors you partake in. Second, identify what you are trying to escape from. Once you have identified the root cause of what’s making you flee reality, work on correcting it. By limiting  or eliminating your escape behaviors, you will learn to cope with the uncomfortableness of reality. Thus, making you better geared towards dealing with adversity. Work through the discomfort instead of escaping it. The more you do this, the more well equipped you’ll be to deal with whatever life throws your way.




Love is an action.


Artwork: As Long As You’re Still Breathing – Jeffrey Smith

Love is an action. I once thought it was something that would just come to me, without putting in any effort. I am now seeing love in a new light. Love is something you give. The funny thing is, the more you give, the more you receive. If you’re feeling like any of your relationships are beginning to wane, try giving some love without expecting any in return. The more love I seem to give, the more love I seem to get, and the higher my capacity for receiving love seems to become.

Comfort in Uncertainty

I am in a place I have never been before in my life. The more I move forward, the more my life is in a constant state of change. It’s scary and mostly confusing. I experience down times of frustration and uncertainty, then I experience highs times of motivation and momentum. I’m really starting to come to terms with the constant change and becoming more familiar with that feeling of uncertainty. In order to grow, we must push the envelope from time to time and feel the discomfort. As Alexis Carrel once said, “Man cannot remake himself without suffering, for he is both the marble and the sculptor.”

When you’re on the path of self-mastery, or just trying to improve your life, it can be easy to get caught up in all the things you think you should be doing. Always looking forward and analyzing the things in your life that you need to change. Putting the focus on what our lives are lacking and developing a lacking mindset. We forget to put emphasis on the present moment and learn to enjoy the only thing that really exists, right now. Life is abundant. Life isn’t just about attaining material wealth and accomplishing goals. It’s about living. Learn how to enjoy your life and to share it with others gracefully. Forgive and recognize no one really knows how to live a perfect life. No one knows all the answers.

When attempting to navigate through our lives, we tend to think we can attain a certain outcome in our own life that by mimicking others. Although it is great to learn from others and apply knowledge that has been accumulated over time, I also believe it’s important to remember that every person is equally vast and complex. What others have done/do to get where they are, won’t work for everyone. We need to recognize the importance of the individual experience. The beauty in it. There are infinite variables that lead to our perceptions, values, ideas, opinions and ways of thinking. We are basically a smorgasbord. All equally as complex and capable of doing great things. It’s a matter finding what is in alignment with the person you have become and are becoming, then running with it.

The reality that we live in is incomprehensible to our tiny human minds, as amazing and vast as they may be. All we can do is interpret the world around us with our five very limited senses. Give yourself a fuckin break! It’s okay to not know the answers and to be confused. We will never fully know the mysteries of this ever expanding reality in which we have the privilege of being a part of. By recognizing the limitations in our understanding, we can forgive ourselves for not knowing all the answers, and in turn have a mind open enough to receive them.


An INTRO to SPECTION Through Psychedelics


The snozzberries do in fact, taste like snozzberries… But that’s beside the point, for a long time I have struggled with introspection and getting to another level of understanding within myself. To be able to peer behind the veil of who I think am, to get a glimpse of who I really am. To see what’s in the way of expressing true authenticity.

I am one of the lucky ones who is interested in understanding what causes me to do the things I do. To see/learn about the “defense” mechanisms we can concoct in our brain as a way of avoiding pain, discomfort, and/or past trauma we’ve brushed under the rug. Our minds are masters at finding ingenious ways to take the focus away from aspects of ourselves we don’t accept, look down upon, or simply don’t want to work on. It’s hard to see the illusions our minds create, with the state of mind that created them. I believe that’s why psychedelics can be a powerful tool for introspection. The shift in perception they bring allows you to view yourself in a different state of mind.

On the flip side, digging through your past and being forced to really look at yourself in the mirror, is not always a pleasant experience. Psychedelics are not for everyone. They can also be dangerous if not used correctly, or made correctly. You should always do your own research before blindly taking someone’s word for it. Being in a safe environment with people you trust, or by yourself, is important. I by no means claim to be an expert and really have a minute understanding of how different compounds effect the body and mind. What I talk about are opinions and observations made through my personal experience. Results may vary.  Do your research.

Expansion of Consciousness

Awareness of inner workings, recognition of human ignorance, the realization that nobody really knows the truth of existence, and the discovery of a more harmonious way of living. These are some ways in which I have experienced an expansion of my own consciousness with the assistance of psychedelics. Yes, these are all things I could have read about, put into practice, and grew an understanding of over time, but I was able to get a glimpse first hand.

I like to somewhat view psychedelics as little cheat codes that have the potential level us up faster in the game of life. I do have to say though, not all realizations come so easy. Most of my experiences have been mildly to very uncomfortable. I had a lot of shit deep down, still do, that has been suppressed and ignored for many years. When you let that simmer in the subconscious, it can begin fester and eventually effect your overall well being. In order to grow, we need to face the wounds and bandage them so that we can allow them to heal. Healing and growth can be painful, but also necessary in order to live a healthy harmonious life. Lucky for us, psychedelics can really push stuff to the surface and force us to face it.



We are all human. We are all flawed. If you look at the world and the societies we live in today, how can you not expect to be a little fucked up in some way? We all are!  I actually take comfort in the idea that we are still primitive beings trying to navigate through this ever advancing and evolving world. This thought allows me to go easier on myself and find a deeper connection with others. We are all confused and lost in some way or another. We all feel this horrible and wonderful spectrum of human emotions. Interestingly enough, we are still very much hardwired for a very different way of living. The world is evolving  at a much more rapid pace than our brains. We truly are modern humans with primitive tendencies. It’s through better understanding of ourselves and the world we live in that improves the quality of our life and those around us.

Here’s the thing, life is not easy and no one said it was going to be, but you can improve your experience. One of the most important things I think you can acquire in this life is knowledge. Yes, you can come to some really great realizations with the assistance of psychedelics, but the more you learn and educate yourself, the more you increase your capacity for understanding. The real work and progress takes place in your day to day life. With the daily choices you make.  The result of where you are now is an accumulation of the choices you have made until this point. Psychedelics are great, but by no means necessary. The introspective abilities you inherently possess are where the real power is. The more you practice the stronger they get.